Elliana

Dearest Yoni.

Excuse me.

• For not standing up for you and letting them cut you open at your first birth. That you suffered and I suffered with you.
• That even the second time was not with gentleness and you experienced pain.
• That it took, so long and it wasn’t until the third birth that I protected you and we both experienced how beautiful, strong and gentle the birth of a new life is.

I gave you my full trust. It happened in an intimate home setting. Where it was just you, me and the baby. It was quick, intense and yet all in gentleness and respect for you. We found our strength in each other. When I touched you and felt you move the baby out, I will never forget it. The feeling is indescribable in words. It was a powerful, emotional, beautiful, profound and most of all healing experience for both of us. In that moment, a WOMAN was born.

I’m sorry I betrayed you.

1. When you already trusted me.
2. When we found our way to each other.
3. When I felt you
4. When you came alive. Once again, I allowed violence in the form of a procedure (removing a polyp from my uterus). Then you needed time, and I didn’t give it to you. You let me know for months in the form of infections and I still didn’t want to hear from you.

Dear.

• Only when I forgave myself did you forgive me.
• Only when I was cured, you were cured.

Dearest…

• Now you are blooming, even blossoming.
• Now I listen to your needs.
• Now we are in union and in the deepest connection with each other.

Thank you.

• For believing in me.
• That because of you, I have found my strength.
• That you made me feel
• That you make me shine.

YONI, my treasure and energy.